Assalamualaikum warahmatullah wbarakatuh,wahai yang selalu memperbaharui niatnya..
It's late and I'm still not sleepy..somehow..my tiredness had abandoned me to do whatever that I needed and havd to do.Catch up with my beloved people,that's a must.I can't live without having at least a few of them spicing up my day.I like somethng spicy..*lame!*well,you know what I meant right?minta izin untuk cakap somethng personal sikit.I miss kamu semua..*you know I'm talking about you*like berabisly..as kak Fihubbillah said in her post rindu ani nda kan pernah habis n berhenti..
I don't really like exam season.you know why?cause I'm restricted to do stuffs I usually do like meeting up my buddies n chilling~I guess everyone is busy..with revision and preparation kan?it's 2 weeks plus the revision week.well THAT's THREE weeks.batah kan?!
Well I need to prioritise.Sometimes I find it hard to express my thoughts in here.Well,most of the time.huhu.kadang-kadang ada jua niat kan mem-vainkan diri atu kan,you know talking about your life and what happened just now that you wanted to share or you feel frustrated by that paper*for example*hehe.tapi kalau nada faedah ,buang tenaga saja menulis kan?so if I *majal jua* need to let it all out I'll just go to my other blog..hehe.*Apakan~*yawnn~
bah ok ok..I'll stop..kalau kamu mengantuk agatah kamu tidur..sal I'm going to talk about myslef jua ni STILL.hehe..
SubhnaAllah I'm sorting some of those puzzles in my life.These days I'm always left alone with my puzzle block.Trying to figure out where each puzzle should be placed?I always end up asking myself why did I want to do this puzzling puzzle on the first place?Everything need to be sorted out.I dearly envy those gifted people who can easily read the pattern and see their intended values to be shared with others.As for me,I'm still with my puzzle block.Haven't finished my part.
I guess meeting quite a few people makes me reflect back about nikmats that I've received from Allah,and questions like*see above*linger quite frequently:
"Have I fully given my best shot?"
"Is it the bestest that I can give?"
"Is this what Allah intended me to do?"
"Where will you see yourself in 5 years time?10 years time?"in the grave already?*boleh jadikan?*
Isn't it if I haven't given my best, I will be accounted as a servant yg kufur(tidak mensyukuri) nikmat?Will I?:(
You can say that I kinda in that crossroad again.huhu.I shall continue my puzzling confusing thrilling journey.I believed and will always believe that Allah has better plans for me.Allah is THE BESTEST PLANNER!
If I were to ask myself personally what I really want and/or what I really think?I don't know if it's somethng possible for now:).Did make a few research on it but haven't got the answer that I'm searching for.I don't know.Let Allah guide me..insyaAllah..I'll find THE way~The BEST in Allah's ilm.Yet I'm not saying that I'm not thankful what Allah have given me..SubhanAllah..Alhamdulilah..TOO much that I'm speechless..
Whenever Allah put you in situation where you don't really like, it is to teach you something right?so that after the ordeal is over,you shall appreciate THE PRESENT more...
And I think it was a long test.perhaps I haven't passed it?Did i keep on failing on THIS test,Ya Rabbi?Once there was this dear friend of mine who said that "bila Allah uji kita pada benda yang sama berulang kali,itu bermakna kita belum lulus dengan ujian-ujian yang lepas"have you encountered a situation where IT is actually the same concept,just with different people and time?The same feelings..the same frustration..the same script different cast*macam lagu Whitney Houston:P*
well..there you go..the answer to that is...YOU STILL HAVEN'T succeeded YET.So keep on trying..keep on trying khadijah..keep on trying making a successful attempt.insyaAllah..Allah takkan sekali-kali menyia-yiakan usaha yang hambaNya lakukan..insyaAllah..
*some text missing because too personal to share*-belahan hati2ku,can ask for password from me at my other blog.*
As I've given it athought,I came across with two realization. First, Everyone are created with different attributes and strength.Same like a metal.Every metal has it's own benefits and attributes that differ themselves from the other.For example,Iron.Iron can not replace magnesium in its function and strength.Same as us(human beings).I love this notion..
"Allah tidak menciptakan manusia ada yang pandai ada yang bodoh. Tetapi Allah mencipta kita semua berbeza kepandaian. Carilah keistimewaan diri masing-masing"
cue:carilah keistimewaan masing-masing..
secondly,buatlah yang terbaik untuk dirimu kerana Allah bukan untuk orang lain.I know this sentence doesn't seem to have any extraordinary impact to you but to me it gives and makes a huge difference.
Dalam kembaraku untuk mengenal serta belajar erti sebuah metal logam dalam lapangan dunia.I know that it feels that it's too late but I believe the word 'never' shouldn't be put in my dictionary so that MY CPU always see possibilty in my kembara.*kembara sounds wayy cool-er than expedition don't you think so?hehe.
while you're trying,have faith and keep husnuzon with Allah...Allah is THE BEST PLANNER.this goes to me first and foremost...have you given your best shot using your attributes and strength and doing all this because of Allah for YOU~??
I found this video very uplifting..wanna share it..enjoy~
okie..let's go ambil kertas mahjung and buat 100 wishes that is achievable insyaAllah..n lakatkan di dinding di bilik...So that it will remind you of your dream that yet to come true..insyaAllah...
"kenyataan hari ini adalah impian semalam.."
set your goals high..in everything..dalam ibadat solat,sedekah,pelajaran,bersahabat,membalas jasa ibu bapa and other things that you want to achieve...SET YOUR GOALS HIGH!!
for example..I want to solat tahajjud every night..I want to khatam Al-Quran at least 3 times per year..I want to study till masters in..*fill the blnks*..and many more..
with our dreams...we plan what should we do to fulfill it..write down your objectives every week..every months..so that we can see the progression..N with that,EVRYTHING is achievable n POSSIBLE..NOthing is impossible in Allah's ordain,,If HE say ku fa yakun..It'll happen..:D
what we should do now is TO STRIVE AND DO OUR BEST..
I'll leave you with this wonderful ayah from Al-Quran(surah Ar-ra'd(13):11
"..Sesungguhnya Allah tidak akan mengubah keadaan suatu kaum sebelum mereka mengubah keadaan mereka sendiri..."
I'm sure this ayah is sooo common to you..but have you got the chance to really ponder and reflect this ayah to yourself..?kita kena ubah keadaan kita..what is keadaan kita?maksudnya..We need to change our behaviour..renew our niat so that it'll become better and better in having faith in qadha n qadar Allah..rasanya keadaan apa lagi yang harus kita ubah so that rahmat Allah mendekat?*I'll leave you to think of that*
Sebelum berjumpa pada post yang akan datang*I can't promise that it'll be soon.biiznillah..I try*,I leave you in ALlah's protection and love..jaga pandangan..jaga kata-kata..jaga hati yang seperti air yang mengelegak itu~
Assalamualaikum warahmatullah wabrakatuh...
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